in my own world

God why do i have some unhappy moments ever since from may until now? all i wan was just a peaceful moments for myself to concentrate on my N lvls. thats all i ask for..why cant i even get to enjoy myself ? i so seriously damn fck up lar..and i even get to scold vulgar to my own teacher=.=.

Home? wad is that? home doesnt feel like home.

my junior told mi that home is a place where you can feel warmth.

the word warmth seems to be so fake and dream-like to mi. everyone will tell mi the same thing. I wld like to ask God that other thn a Home, is there other places thats is better thn home and i can live alone? wld i be selfish to say that? or even think of that?

that place of mine, its just an empty shell for mi to stay in.

 

mapling (:

went out with elaine on sat (: we indeed had a great fun on that day(: , we talk about maple stuffs, family stuffs and do some shopping(: de pictures is in her blog(: and she is super ‘lame’! LOL xD!

will chiong 60 tickets gachapon in maple inorder to crt my own zai guild, will try all my best to make my guild became zai and allied with elaine guild (:, holyfirex3

daddi : prosin

mummi : JINGx3

Dis : dark di , appango di, shadow di, crystalboi di

mei : XDxiia0MaG3

mi : the oldest xD!

this survey..gosh *faint*

apparently, i found this survey in lyn’s blog when i surf her post and i decide to put it in my blog too (:

At the end of the survey, ask 5 people to do it!
Do not read the questions, name 20 people first!

1. Lyn (since i found this on her blog)

2. shuting

3. Jenny

4. Li en

5. Sophia

6. Rebecca

7. Gervian

8. Shurong

9. Mevis

10. XiaoFeng

11. Alvin

12. JianHui

13. Jinming

14. Junrong

15. Daniel

16. Celestine

17. SamanthaKoh

18. Jieying

19. Samanthangau

20. Sharon Ho

No 1 to 15 is my church frens, the rest is my school mates or juniors (:

– How you meet number 14 ?
 Church

– What will you do if you did not meet number 1 ?
I won’t be doing this survey

– What if number 9 and 20 dated each other ?
I bet thing will gone worst if both of them found out this survey=x

– Descibe number 3 ?
o.o quiet?..lols
– Do you think number 8 is attractive ?
she’s my mother of cause attractive la (:

– Describe number 7 ?
Cheerful and great (:

– Do you know any family members number 12 ?
ermms..not really know

– What langugue(s) does number 5 speak ?
Mandarin, Singlish, English.  and what else?(:

– Who hang out with number 9 always ?
Oh, no 1 to 15 including me (: if i not wrong

– How old is number 16 this year ?
lols..younger than me i guess.. how about 14 yr old?

– When is the last time you spoke to number 13 ?
few hours ago?

– Who is number 2 favourite singer or band ?
ME (: Joyzhang

– Have you ever dated number 4 ?
O_O.. i dun wan thanks (:

– What is number 10 last name ?
Feng?..

– Would you ever be in a relationship with number 11 ?
NOPE! not even in ten millions decades (:

– Which school does number 3 studying in?
er..i dunno =x

– Where does number 6 stays ?
Woodlands, if i not wrong

– What is the favourite thing in number 5 ?
no 5?.. i guess i like her crazyness when playing games ba..lols or perhaps not (:

– Have you seen number 2 naked ?
LOL!.. i wln’t even want to.. i am 100% pure..lols!

If Your name is here, pls do this survey.
1. Lyn (heh heh heh, revenge time!)
2. Samanthangau
3. Li En
4. Shuting
5. Myself. =)

 

can i have a change?

where the hell am i going? and where the hell am i thinking? can i have a change?..i am really damn sickening about my life le.. except on sat and sun.. mon to fri was so bloody hell damn freak up la.. de life cycle of mine is keep on repeating and repeating all over and over again. and these are the things that kept on repeating : dad’s nagging and scolding for no reason.. just a few seconds of forgotting to turn off the swtich and kena scolding again-.- please la dad.. if your ears or mouth is not tired, please think of mine can?.. you say you ownself keep saying and saying very tired de.. then WHY DUN YOU KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT AND STOP SAYING?!?!  grrr! ok nvm enough of this crap that i have it at home .

not going anywhere else this june .. including the bintan trip and church missionary trip:) frens, no point nagging at my ears please 🙂  i dun care whether my earning is 14bucks a day or whatsoever.. i wan earn money can le..and dad, i wan earn money is my prob.. please dun interupt what i am doing now.. sometimes i feel like not going home and stay out late w/o you nagging at my ears 🙂 go home let you nag..go out also let you nag..what you want from me? i was beaten up by you since kindergarden untill pri6.. if you feel that beat me makes you feel so great..then go ahead 🙂

 

 

SHOUTOUT: you idiot BASKETT! @%#$%@#$@

A NEW BLOGPLACE (W/O ANY ERRORS :])

FINALLY! , i changed into wordpress..was sickening about blogger, keep error here and there-.-! was wondering why ppl are still using blogger . and yup mevis was back and came to church.. the gals were having fun with chit chatting among them and my job was a photographer :)) this coming tues sth special and fun is gonna happen xD. shh~ dun let others know xD.

 

went back home, as usual sitting at one place, *a-hem* dun wan to say out whats that place =x , let you guess what is that place 😀 ..sit until around 10 plus, went back to my room to prepare to sleep. and my mum was talking to someone on the phone. and this was what i heard :

mum : you know that if it wasn’t aunty molly talk good words at Ps. angeli and Ps.emily, they wldn’t let my daughter play guitar on stage.

aunty meilan : really?

mum : my daughter was helping at fcbc for video camera and Ps.angeli ask her to come back and serve.

aunty meilan : i see i see…

mum : all along is they all notice those whom they really like..if not they wont even notice my daughter de

i overheard this conversation..was asking myself, is this really true? or just that they purposely say it de?and suddenly 1 msg came to my phone and it was kor iz. he scolded me for not bringing my maths exam paper to him and bla bla bla~ and i angrily close my phone and hide my face under my pillow. what is this all about? past 2 mths everything is like so SHIT  la.. this gone wrong that also gone wrong..what FCK is this?!